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Aug 28
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What happens when someone breaks your heart?

When someone breaks your heart, first you are shocked. Someone will say you are heartbroken and you examine the words break and heart and heartbroken and you immediately decide that it’s inaccurate. You feel pain in the region of your heart and you think it’s your heart breaking but one’s heart doesn’t really break, something else does - faith. You stop believing.

No, not in the big things which are most of the time irrelevant. You still believe in God or Buddha or some Supreme Being, you still believe child prostitution is bad. You just stop believing in the small things that you do, that small things that give meaning to your daily life, and you begin to think everything is pointless: Why get up? Why dress up? Why breathe in and out? What for? What for?

When someone breaks your heart, you turn into a small ball of self-pity. You lie in bed, in a ball. You hug your knees, keeping them close to your chest, like a fetus. Freud said it’s human instinct to go back to the womb where we can feel safe.

But that’s what happens when someone breaks your heart — they steal the very thing that makes you feel safe, whole, intact.

— M.D. Balangue (Mr. Write)

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    on purpose. I couldn’t bear it. Please.
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    & the day when you wake up...suddendly realize you don’t feel this way anymore is…amazing
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    jamieelizabeth:marjchun:...— M.D. Balangue (Mr. Write)
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    What happens when someone breaks your heart? When someone breaks your heart, first you are shocked. Someone will say you...
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    yup….been there.
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